"Oh how liberating it is to come back to my vintage photos and fabrics in which I love to touch, explore and combine together in a pleasing outpouring of my soul to create art." I had to come to some self realizations in order to sit down again and do this thing in which I love. I had to let go of the guilt associated with creating art with images of people I do not know when I'm expected to create art with images of people I do know. What do I mean by that? Well, while sitting here alone thinking of all the crafts I
HAD to create of my children, for my children, for my family and friends, for my job...for others, for them...and theirs...or face the guilt (from happiness) of creating art with images of faces from the past (that called out to me) each time I saw them... I became torn, complexed, and frustrated to the point of no creation at all for myself or them and theirs or mine for that matter.
In doing
that I felt lost, confused, guilt (nolonger happy guilt) for what I wanted to do but couldn't for wanting to fulfill the expectations of others on me and my own need to preserve the memories of my children right now, right away...couldn't wait or I'd miss the moment type of urgency. "And why are you creating those pieces again...? what do you call what you do...?" someone asked me (my friend, even hubby?) when they saw my fabric art with these vintage women on them. "Don't you want to scrap your kids?" "Umm...Ahh..yeah, I do...sure let's scrap...gulp...guilt." How could I create my own art for me and neglect my obligations to them and theirs and mine for that matter to create pieces that no one understood?
"Is your head spinning reading this?" Mine was... I became trapped in this cycle and so in turn I couldn't move. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't create. I felt guilt and loss site of the
gift that God put within me. He had to sit me down and quiet my spirit..."shh...shh...listen...shh...listen to your heart." "What does it tell you to do?" "Hmm...I started listening..." And that's when I decided to come back to what I love to do...come back to my vintage photos and fabrics in which I love to touch, explore and combine together in a pleasing outpouring of my soul to create art...
"There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus..." Roman's 8:1(KJV). How liberating! How liberating in deed! Pretty deep huh? Well...this was the first piece that spoke to me and it's entitled..."Yes, I'm Ready..."
Are you listening to your heart? "Shh...Listen."
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